when i don’t have all the answers


when i was little we called them dittos. you know, those single sheets of busy-work paper that the teacher used to give us? some call them work-sheets. we had to fill in all the blanks. and i loved them. because i loved the look of having all those blank spaces filled in. i liked having all my i’s dotted and my t’s crossed. i still do. i like knowing what’s going on. i like having the answers. but in real life, we don’t, do we? we don’t have all the answers—ever. not this side of things, anyway.


so i’m learning to live in that tension of having blank spaces but also being at peace. knowing that the Author of my life and yours can be trusted and has a plan. i’m learning to look at a paper and not have to scan to fix all the punctuation or capitalization. it has been freeing to settle into the fact that i don’t have to have answers for all my questions. i still don’t like it. it feels uncomfortable at times. but it also feels more real than when i fooled myself into thinking i knew exactly how it all worked.


so now, when i start feeling panicky about things i don’t know, i just start listing the things I do Know:

  • I know I was created by a loving God, not accidentally formed by ooze. I look around at the complexity of nature’s balance or inward at the workings of the amazing human body, and I know it was all designed. God’s fingerprints are all over this creation.
  • I know that Jesus lived, died and rose again. And because of that—I have amazing grace and freedom. I believe the argument that Josh McDowell puts out there (and maybe he got it from CS Lewis? I don’t know) that Jesus was either Liar, Lunatic or Lord. Those are the options based on the life he lived and the words he said. I choose Lord.
  • I know that God places a high value on wisdom and I should too. And that “all the richest treasures of wisdom and knowledge are embedded in Christ and nowhere else.” (Colossians 2:3 The Message) So to be wise, I need to know Jesus more.
  • And I know that Jesus told us to Love God and Love People. Those are the greatest commands and that’s something tangible that I can work on.


all the rest? i just don’t know the answers to all of the “whys?” but it’s okay. i can live with that. i can thrive in that. because I Know the important stuff and that’s enough for me.


how about you? what do you Know?


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  1. Rebekah!
    Beautiful words today! Thank you.

    • Thank you Anne! This one was hard for me to write but I had to get it out of my head and “on to paper.” Glad it meant something to you!

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